I managed to finish chapter 30 in my novel and edited five more days in my devotional. I also have continued to document the demolition of the old hospital in our town. Over all, I should be feeling pretty good about things, but instead I have turned into a mud puddle.
The affliction I talked about last month has returned and has not abated as it should have. The physical ailment is not nearly as bad as the emotional one.
Ok my apologies to any males reading this, or any females who feel this is too delicate a subject. I am reminded of the New Testament story where a woman had a bleeding disorder for many years (Matthew 9:20). I know the Bible doesn’t say what kind of problem this was, but I am firmly convinced that she had menorrhagia, the medical term for heavy periods. I tell myself that if this happened to women two thousand years ago, why shouldn’t it happen now? But why should it happen to me?
And at 52 years old, I also remember that women just a few generations ago were put in insane asylums when they went through menopause because their hormones made them so crazy that no one knew what to do with them.
I went for five months without a period, and was feeling pretty good that I was cruising into menopause without any of the hormonal roller coaster. I was even in such a good mood at work, that everyone was noticing and asking what was up.
Then, boom, the rug got pulled out from under me and the ovaries sought their revenge. Not only did they tell my uterus to be a jerk, they went straight to my brain and said "be a bitch".
So I made an appointment with my nurse practitioner for Friday. I know that she won’t have any instant cure for me, but maybe knowing that they are not sending me to the insane asylum will help. And I know there are some good drugs out there, I just hate the side effects and what they do to your body in the long run.
Sigh. Thanks for listening and I hope I haven’t offended anyone – no, I don’t really care. If we all have to watch all those commercials for erectile dysfunction, you can hear about my issues too.