Sunday, September 11, 2016

not much turning out right for us

 I had four short sweet goals for last week:
1)      Finish the query for “Where the Sky Meets the Sand”
2)      Write a chapter on my next novel “The Novitiate”
3)      Blog on schedule here and on the Dino Chronicles
4)      Get back on my exercise routine, as I hadn’t even done that last week.  

And how did that work out for me? Not so much. I blogged three times on the Dino Chronicles, but missed Wednesday here. I am going to blame most of that on the fact that my laptop decided to go on sabbatical and just not respond to any of my advances. It just sat there going, “na-ner-na-ner, I’m not going to work for you no matter what you try”. I knew my son was coming home today and told myself not to freak out, to just keep trying to reboot the dumb thing and if nothing worked, my son could look at it today. Sometime in the middle of the night Thursday, when I couldn’t sleep, the umpteenth reboot woke up the beast and it has been working okay since. Still a little sluggish, but overall, working.

I don’t know what to tell you about the exercise routine thing, and certainly not about the hoping to lose ten pounds. I’ve been under a lot of stress, which means I rather sit on my backside and pour food down my throat than do anything more physical than I have to.

I still feel like I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I finally let my guard down enough on Friday to tell my hubby how I have really been feeling. He was naturally supportive and worried. But that just makes me feel worse because he is under more stress than I am. Last night he admitted that he felt he was losing it too. Think they have couples’ rooms on the psych ward?

I’ve been down this road before and I know that my feelings of despair will pass. I do worry about the hubby though. You might suggest he take a vacation. Today is the last day of a five-day vacation for him, during which he really didn’t have any plans and didn’t want any plans, just wanted to relax. Look at how well that worked out.

Anyway, we will figure it out. In the meantime, I typed up a new spreadsheet of my weekly goals. Even though they are about the same goals as I’ve had, maybe looking at them in a different format will jar me out of my complacency. It’s worth a try, right?

Hopefully, I’ll let you know how that is working on by Wednesday.

 I've been thinking that I need some new head shots since I've grown out my hair. Hubby took some on Friday, but even that didn't turn out so well. 


  1. The pictures are very nice. :)

    I can relate to feeling like you're about to have a nervous breakdown. I have so many things, both at work and personally, that are happening and I feel like I can barely keep up. This too shall pass, right? Hugs. I hope things calm down some for you.

    Well done on your goals. Every little bit counts.

    1. Thanks, Erin. I appreciate your kind words. I am sure that things will turn around for me soon.

  2. It seems a lot of us here are going through some difficult times. I hope you get things worked out so that there's less stress. Hubby and I are trying. Working on it together and not holding things back from each other is good, I think.

  3. Sometimes what is progress cannot be measured, not even with the clearest of goals or the best of intentions. What might be helpful right now is to cherish the moment. Sending you virtual hugs. PS I like the pictures. They could be cropped down to true 'head' size, yes?

  4. Sorry to hear about your stress levels and that awful feeling of not doing enough all us creative types have—even when we most definitely ARE doing enough! Yes, better days will undoubtedly come. The sun has to shine again sometime, right? Nice pics, btw.

  5. Every Sunday I convince myself the upcoming week will be better. When things kind of unraveled around here once again last night, I thought, yup, this will be another wasted week. Oh, well.

  6. Life has its mood. And personal victories from day to day struggles. The main thing is not to let things get you down.

  7. I have a stupid laptop that behaves much the same, so hugs. Some weeks are like that. Try not to lose heart. All we can really do is start where we are.

    I've been in a bit of a slump too. Here's hoping next week is better for both of us.

  8. Sometimes, it can help to look for one good moment, and hang onto that for dear life. At least you and your mate are communicating about it, which is important for both of you.

    Five days doesn't sound like it was enough vacation for him. I hope he can get more time, and more rest.

    On Sunday, our beloved sweet dog, Corki, died after a brief battle with cancer. There's a 75 pound hole in my life, this week. I was exhausted most of Monday - I'm not a napper, but I took several micronaps- I was just too tired to stay awake.

    I hope you can find a path to more good moments, or, if you need it, help for you and your husband.

    Keeping you in my thoughts, Chris - and I like the photos, too.